Just a few more hours to go :)

I had another less than stellar day with my eating. I know the scale has to be moving backward but I've totally lost my routine b/c of all this crazy crap. Pre-op went well so it's ON.

Briz - I've been putting off addressing your comments about my coffee as a meal, but I have to be honest. Breakfast is such a stretch for me that I'm just not hungry in between breakfast and lunch. Thinking about eating something during that period is gag-inducing to me. I've tried to think of what might taste/sound good between 9 and 10 and I just can't think of anything. I hate yogurt and fruit is so freaking sweet...ick. I have to get over this fruit and vegetable aversion, but it's a slow go. Maybe I need to buy some power bar type things and see if I can get a half of one down.

Regardless, I know this. Tomorrow's eating is going to be all effed up. I can't eat or drink a thing after midnight tonight and surgery isn't until 11:00. Surgery should take an hour plus another hour in recovery. Add at least another half hour to get to the car and get home and I'm already at 1:30 or 2:00. Even then, I may not feel up to eating. The last time I had drugs like this, I only ate crackers and Coke for 2 days. Believe me when I say that is not me. As I've previously mentioned, I eat my way through pretty much everything that comes along, so we'll see. I will most likely not post tomorrow but hopefully I will feel up to it by Friday.

Nat - Don't let your weight freak you out...let it remind you where you want to be. From here on out, just remember that every healthy bite of food taken and every sugary bite refused will propel you to your goal. As Briz said, it's just a beginning. Good to take action now then freak out about it later.

Food today:
9:30 Raisin Bran
10:30 Coffee
12:30 Cup of O'Charley's potato soup, 2 rolls with butter, 1/4 of a chicken tender salad with ranch (the good stuff) and (brace yourself) 1 and a half bottles of Bud Select. I was going to leave that out, but it's true and I'm all about truth. Beer with a girlfriend (who went with me to the pre-op) at O'Charley's right in the middle of the day. It was fun and we were laughing, so I just don't feel guilty even though I totally should.
6:00 Leftover half of my Chipotle burrito from yesterday and a Coke

Obviously, not a good eating day. I have one setback and I turn to food for comfort. I sure failed that test. Despite that, I am still impressed with myself for cutting down on portions. Pre-blog, I would have had an entire bowl of soup, the entire salad and as many rolls as I could shove in. Not sure what dinner would have been b/c I would have eaten the entire burrito last night along with some chips and salsa. You get the idea. I'm making progress, just not at the pace I would like. It will come.

OK. I'm signing off for a bit, but not leaving. I will be back. Not just a promise...it's a commitment!